What doesn’t kill us only makes us stronger…..apparently!!

This saying is so true but it also really annoys me.

Now I can hear everyone groan now as I start another rant, but I’m in sooooo much pain!!!! Everyone has told me how brave i’ve been and what a strong person I am, but seriously now! How much can one person take before they crumble???

After my last op in Nov, I was actually feeling quite good, I was managing to eat a bit more, get around better…….and it feels like 1 step forward, 10 steps back. I can’t eat again, can’t move about and spend most of my time in bed again!

I had to go to the emergency dr just before  xmas cause i was getting niggly pains but its full blown now! When i saw them they said it could just be the op didnt work and the adhesions have grown bk, or an abcess or maybe a bowel obstruction. Either way, none of them are good. The only upside is that i’m seeing my consultant 2 weeks today! To be honest though, if its the adhesions then theres not really much they can do for me anymore, yet i dont really fancy the thought of living like this for the rest of my life!!! Even though he doesn’t really say, I no that my fiance gets pissed off with it too. What kkind of life do we have???? I’ll tell you….We don’t have one!!!!

Doctors really need to start more research on this, as it’s a common problem even though they don’t wanna admit it. The fact it’s caused by surgery means it’s caused by them, and they can’t be seen to be making people ill now can they!!

Either way I’m fed up, sad, angry and depressed. Much as I love my bed, I don’t wanna be here forever!!!…