Telling It The Way I See It

{March 31, 2011}   The Big C

Has anyone been watchin The Big C on More4???? I was slightly dubious about it, as its dealin with quite a tough issue, but with humour added in. But I watched it, and can honestly say I really like it!!

So for those who don’t know what it is, The Big C refers to Cancer. Its based on a woman who is diagnosed with breast cancer and how she deals with it. What I like about it, is how upbeat it is. Nomally you say the C word and it brings everyone down. Well not this!! Its also funny but without being over the top. In all, I think the writers have done a brilliant job and Laura Linney is superb as Cathy, the woman diagnosed. Basically she doesn’t want it to get her down, so she starts doing everything she’s always wanted to do.

Ok so I know it’s a tv show and in real life things aren’t that simple but it shows such a different side to cancer. How it doesn’t have to be so depressing and mainly how everyone should live their life to the full regardless.

Me and my mum have done the Race For Life for the last 4 years to help raise money for Cancer Research and I really urge every woman to do it, and anyone who can’t, to sponsor someonewho is doing. Hopefully one day they will find a cure and we can get rid of such a vile disease. It seems nowadays everyone is affected by it in some way, whether they have it themself or know someone who has it and those who have been affected in some way will know how hard it is, not only for the patient but for those around them too.

So, here’s a big middle finger to cancer!!!

To those dealing with it, my thoughts and prayers are with you all xxxxxxx


I am still reeling from a comment made by a ‘so called friend’.

I wont embaress them by putting a name by the comment made was…….

***** ******* is just wondering what my friends on facebook think about an MP campagining for one individual to have IVF before she should be entitled to it?? What makes this person so special that she gets prefiential treatment when there are hundreds of other couples and individuals that are all in the same boat and do not fit the criteria but no one campaigns for them!!! Answers below.

Now for those who read my blog you will know about my meeting with my local MP. The fact that I met her to talk about setting up a infertility support group and NOT for my own benefit, seems to be lost on this person. The part regarding her helping me was just a bonus. Now, say you go for a really expensive meal that you cant really afford but that you do everything to save up for it, then are told that there maybe a way to get it free, would you turn it down??? I think not!!!!!!

The way I have been made out is that I am looking after No 1, which I must state is NOT the case at all!!

I have been making scarfs, quilts, blankets and doing peoples nails to save up for my IVF, doing anything i can think of just to raise the money. All the time this other person sits on her bum, waiting for everything to come to her. That’s not a dig by any means, its just a fact. Nothing in life comes for free, so if you really want something…..GET OUT THERE AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!!

The other thing that has annoyed me about the whole comment, is that ANYONE can appeal to their local PCT to receive IVF funding. Any tom, dick or harry. But it does involve doing something yourself.

This is what I have done. Above anything, the most important thing to me is to get the support group up and running, anything else would be an added bonus.

So anyone thinking I am doing this for my own benefit is very wrong. I just can’t help it that someone wants to help me, because i have taken the time and effort to research and do something about getting what I want. If that makes me selfish, then selfish I must be!

Everyone else I no has been so supportive and have wished me the best, offered help with anything I need……but there’s always someone who wants to knock you down, that person normally turns out to be the jealous one. Someone should tell them, Green really doesn’t suit them 😉

This saying is so true but it also really annoys me.

Now I can hear everyone groan now as I start another rant, but I’m in sooooo much pain!!!! Everyone has told me how brave i’ve been and what a strong person I am, but seriously now! How much can one person take before they crumble???

After my last op in Nov, I was actually feeling quite good, I was managing to eat a bit more, get around better…….and it feels like 1 step forward, 10 steps back. I can’t eat again, can’t move about and spend most of my time in bed again!

I had to go to the emergency dr just before  xmas cause i was getting niggly pains but its full blown now! When i saw them they said it could just be the op didnt work and the adhesions have grown bk, or an abcess or maybe a bowel obstruction. Either way, none of them are good. The only upside is that i’m seeing my consultant 2 weeks today! To be honest though, if its the adhesions then theres not really much they can do for me anymore, yet i dont really fancy the thought of living like this for the rest of my life!!! Even though he doesn’t really say, I no that my fiance gets pissed off with it too. What kkind of life do we have???? I’ll tell you….We don’t have one!!!!

Doctors really need to start more research on this, as it’s a common problem even though they don’t wanna admit it. The fact it’s caused by surgery means it’s caused by them, and they can’t be seen to be making people ill now can they!!

Either way I’m fed up, sad, angry and depressed. Much as I love my bed, I don’t wanna be here forever!!!…

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